hey diary,

• i am back from malaysia


• i lost my subway job!


• i am not perfect too!


• i need a good religion to guide me forever


• life is never easy!


• i need a group of friend support


• i am still single
• i like sport


• i working @ NIKE this wednesday 23 dec 09


• i cant study applied food science one.


• i aim to sp to study other course accounting


• i dislike my mum attitude toward me


• already 21 century! so painful go out with friend


• catch a movie get cane. 21 dec 09


• i am already 19 i know what is wrong and right to do


• i dislike being alone
• need to work hard
• tmr result out of ite so fast
• just being imperfect is also better!
• cheer up!
• alzena is a good girl :x be strong

hey diary

i am back!!

i meet joon kiat finally my oversea guy friend!
from overseas ns!(national service)

hmmm
we went to watch movie
on the friday ( public holiday)

he is my dream guy!
sob sob!

i fall in love with him
he say! we support to kiss on friday
because the movie too bloody

haha make me laugh
on saturday
i went to meet him
we go chinese garden
first time for me!

we both like couples
we kiss too and hug! hold hand!
wow! we no sex
( he say one)
he give me birthday kiss!( so sweet)

dunno he will really like me
too many guys ask m3 to be their girlfriend
i dun like!

miss him!

sob sob!

i go watch new moon with meixi
she give me biirthday+ christmas ( chocolate)
and my course mate send me birthday card ( he wrote 18 yrs old) nvm
jie jie friend give me next year calendars

a lot of people wish mes happy advance birthday!!
thanks people! for the wishes
i wish i stay happy always!

my family still break down!
sian
no boyfriend,perfect eyesight and everything

life not easy
i fail my both class test
fqc and haccp test
no poly! sad
nvm!! cheer up alzena ok?

my neighbour want to buy me present!
yes!
jia you
can make it if u work hard ok
linda ask me buy class photo
still got class chalet

tmr get my paid!

life too busy
life still imperfect for me
=.=

life is always like this! unfair ok?

i very long never go malaysia
my mum is always crazy!

and my long term boyfriend!
haiz
very long never meet up!
i miss him! why? this call love?

my life damn weird

living in my own world daily still got no perfect eyesight
hao say i keep complaining about life
my life really not good!
my dad and my mum got problem effect me!
why?
best friend and me damn long never meet up i am too stupid and feel left-out
never watch movie for so long. haiz

why?
no one ask me out

maybe i better stop go around the brush and talk rubbish.
i suddenly got alot of pimples on my stupid faces

alzena learn to take care of yourself please?
alright
nat say help yourself
do not be weird ok?
do not go around and look for love!

guys like u,they will come after u ?
life is never easy!
i need to stay away from my mum one day to see how she is doing!
life is in my hand i need to move on
2009! not more 2008
everyone does make mistakes everyday?

listen to your mummy ok?
protect yourself and keep changing your attitude it will help actually
u know what is right and wrong so stop being a bitch ?
can one
aim to go and take btt again
one try not enough~
can make it this year! time managment is very important
one step at one time.

jia you
keep studying for this up coming exams ok?
take it slow and steady?
friends come and go if they dislike u just ignore and be yourself ok?
maybe finding job too!plan well
now i got no mobile phone.sad

hmmm i need to start saving money for my future
school and everything haiz!
do not behave like now? lesson learnt?

hey!
shit me

i always got cheated by online
all guys will always take advantage of girls
be girl not good

hmmm
3 times

one times @ movie with one nus guys age 22
second time @ movie with one JC guy age 19
third time @ his house with one drop-out poly guys age 22

haiz!
stop making the same mistakes over and over again

no one is perfect
i am scared
do not let my mum know
i will kill my self

life is always unfair

no such things as free lunch ok?

guys really dislike my type one haiz nvm!

everyone make mistakes
life like this!
up and down.

age of 18 got ur own thinking keep changing
and move on!
do not listen to friends
only mummy!
but if anything happen please protect yourself. ok?
say and do is different! ok must stop doing it!

hang out with friends?
people u know
and protect yourself ok?

move forward work hard for ite go poly
left with one more month do not give up ok?

haiz now i know why i dislike guy.
my friend help me by sending me home ytd.
and pass me money! take train.

i found a job selling cake one
need to perservance ok?
guys can take advantage of girls but not girls ok

hey i am back from driving..
ha ha resignation...

hmmm god bless alzena
is a good girl.
need to jia you

final year in ite!
the world change u should change too

no one is perfect
still finding for boyfriend

hmmm got guys call me!

i shy!
mummy and daddy going to break up soon.

alzena stay happy!
adults always lie one!
really!
u r a good and nice guy!

i hate last year and like myself last year
skinny now fat! alot
and ugly

still miss junwen and desz alot!
same age one!
keepworking hard
need to earn money and paid my own bills for now onward.

just be yourself
people will like u!
some guys are weird.
people all make mistakes one

i smoking again
darrick come find me at yoga lesson on wednesday
which i miss class.
i am happy to miss class
but not good for my exams
and i met a china guy today he is too cute.

i want to be guy more better
today i went to meet darrick he send me by taxi. so nice!
he touch me as well.
cant forgot the past with many cute and nice guys on earth(handsome or rich)
too bad people all attached this year
but not me
i emo!
i still dances..

life will always be imperfect for me!
non- singaporean girl
not pretty
god make me like this!

driving make work hard
start to find part-time job?
school sux! forever.
miss buddhist fellowship friends
i hate people who said life is unfair when they have done sexudal misconduct.
being singaporean also not easy..
why people want me to pass and move on!
but i use to make alot of mistakes in ite.. why?
keep trying! life is always like this.

hey!!

stop being so negative!
maybe i stop talking i will be fine!
the same things over and over again

maybe people is right or not
i dunno
i am always a good girl
be Careful of girl ok?

being pretty is not the real me
i wear spectacle and contacts!

need to improve more!
personal hygiene

the world do not change for ME
do not listen to mummy about the good luck year!
haha

life is ups and downs always!
and
experience is the extract of suffering

guess all guys lie to me the most!
do not believe them!
they are attention seeker
maybe!

keep studying stop being a weirdo ok?
can one
u will make it to good school to study
just keep study no matter what ages!

people comments are weird
and guys are weird
girl suffering more!

i remember my stupid form teacher( fuck her)
life is fair
maybe no one is perfect

keep being yourself
life is not fair
stay in yishun school at simei
life is up and down always
and for me not easy!

do not believe what people say!
friends also not good one.
up to you!
do not follow people who drink,go club and interested in sex one!
especially guys
earn money for saving.!
do not be sexy ok!

i work for formula one!
this weekends! 25 to 27 sep.!

i met a man he told me about this clother design: ambush!
girl can wear guy shirt! shiosk
earn money not easy how!?
i scared guys want to sleep with me?
life going on always? be happy

hey new week again
this time round
weird things happen

i still no perfect eyesight.
hmmm recently there are two malay guys want me to be their girlfriend.
so weird

one is 19 another is 20
the 19 yrs old one ask me out. he want to kiss me oh no.
i shy

20 years old one
teach me driving
buy me black pant
shirt
and treat me movie n meal.
+ stick.. ( smoking )

school as usual boring
my fuck teacher didnt come school
no one is perfect

ytd was seven month last day!
yeah finally it is over.
i feel more save.. no one problem..
bad experience anymore

life is ups and downs
people make mistakes now and then.

ytd went to my aunt shop
to visit them and went to temple.
singapore not good
i need to start saving money
i too stress
my stupid period flow til i feel like dying..
haiz... nvm..
keep smiling
and go temple to appreciate..
there is no sure things as perfection in life.

maintain everything
keep studying ,attend bf talk and improve.
always remember something
everyone see life differently..
depend on how you look @ it.